Sometimes there's the day where you feel happy earlier and sad later, life is unpredictable so all you can do is to be strong facing all the challenge. This is the day where I've felt those emotions on the same day... head over heels and he leave me speechless. And this is always happened when I've started to speak from my heart. I have an issue to believe words from people, trust is something you need to gain and it took me so long to trust someone but when I do I will trust you with all my heart. I respect and appreciate you've tried and maybe I'm not ready but I can try for your love, I've been hiding for so long but to leave me hanging in the middle of conversation is something that can make me further away from reaching the love. I may be different from the other girls, my ego is higher than a man, not good in communicate my feelings but I am definitely not a stone and heartless. The way I show my interest is different and not everyone can see hows my way actually works. My poor communication of feeling to feeling is the reason why I ended up to be alone , I let them slip away from me without hold them tightly. My heart said go and chase but my brain think if they want to stay they will. That's how life work and I believe in fate, I may never say those three words to anyone, I want to say I love you and dying to tell you but I'm afraid. I believe the one is out there waiting to meet me and when I find you I will hold you tightly and say those words Baby, I love You.....
Writings have always give me the great feeling. You'll understand me better base on my writes than as a person. Till next time.
Love,
Nadya S
